well...ive been crying most of the day. which fails very much.
i was having a decent morning for the most part
then my so called best friend informs me that shes goin to my ex gf, very soon to be gf (weve agreed to wait to make anything official until we can see each other rather than do it over text or phone call)
perfectly innocent act, yes.
however....
allizon, my kinda sorta gf informed me that when we broke up her and my best friend (the one whos at her house now) held hands during church alot (ignore the irony of lesbians in a southern baptist church service...)which is fine considering we werent together then, and we still arent.
what gets me is the fact that tiffany has basically told me im goin to hell for bein gay and she always rolls her eyes when i mention how much i love allizon or anything. shes made it very clear that shes against homosexuality.
liar.
its an odd situation. i mean yes, i do have jealousy issues, but shes crossed the line this time.
this time last year i had a bf. tiffany talked to him in the halls, she was always with him after school, she was always at my house when he was (she lives within walking distance to me so its very simple for her to just show up), idk she was just obsessed with him. but before i was with him, she didnt hardly even know he existed. Then she started thinking that anything he did to acknowledge her existence was flirting. He didnt like her. at all. he always told me if she was at my house then he wasnt comin over.
then allizon and i got together and tiffany flat out told me one time that i was hogging all of allizons attention and that i wasnt the only person she was allowed to hang out with and whatever. ok i never once told allizon not to hang out with tiffany. allizon always said she didnt want to talk to tiffany when she could talk to me. not to mention that i was her fuckin girlfriend! of course im gonna get more attention than her friends. and allizon and i were friends long before she and tiffany were.
then when me and allizon broke up, i started talking to the other girl online. tiffany found out about it. and what does she do? she adds the girl on facebook. and starts talking to her. of course.
THEN i went on a date with one of my guy friends. again, tiffany started thinkin the guy liked her. he as well cant stand her. but idk.
none of this bothered me half as much as finding out that her and allizon held hands did. sure its nothing like kissing or sex or anything. but shes broken the dont fall for your best friends exs far too many times now. she doesnt know i know that they held hands. and i want to talk to her about it but i know i wont be able to control my anger. allizon is the love of my life. and shes apologized to no end for everything...even though she has no need to. im the one who broke up with her in the first place. she had every right to do whatever. idk maybe im just overreacting. but seriously she is doing everything she possibly can to be like me. which in a way is flattering. but its getting way out of hand.
idk
does anybody have any idea what i mean?
do you think im overreacting?
any idea what i should do? im very much so out of ideas.
please please please comment. im begging for advice.